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Monday, June 11, 2007

Erm... abt my tagged board.... angelia... dun lame... really NO yuchi... tat kind of food lol...><... budden is quite fun la.. ^^ ty LOL..

Recently i still the same mii... just sumthing bhappen again...
almost every holidays... i had a bad tiime with my family... same prob over n over again...
so dun ask mii y le...
ty fror all frenz who r concern...
mii n0w still veri moody...
well... tat my life..

my maple kana hack siia...
heng my daughter nee... hlped mii alot...
love her siia...muackz....
son oso... but sry for him...
the hack scam him 60m+

Holiday Hw haven t0uch a single yet...mdm tok in hospital...
most ppl say.. no nid do math ><
i dun0....lalala...

my life now simply dead la....
everything i do seem so meaningless to my parents...
they nv ever happy with mii....
i nth to say la...
mii children... they adult...
they sure win ma....

siian... really dunwish to say any other things..

world of my dreams...........
too moody... hope... tis story i gona write wont be tooooo bad><

My world since tat day i was born is all darkness....
n on tat same fateful day...when i was born... my dad met an accident n die..
A rumour was spread tat i am born with cursed...
my mum gone crazy when i was 7 yrs old...
i knew she love mii lots... yet hate mii at the same time as she believed tat i cursed my own dad....
she scolded n critised mii everytime she saw mii.... n throw everthing she could reach toward mii....
i was veri scared.... n since i am blind.. i couldnt hide frm thoses things she threw...
i had scars over my body...
she left mii when i was 15....n i was adopted by a family....
the family had a son... we fell in love with each other.....
he did not mind the fact tat i am blind...n abt the curse...
he told mii... everyone has their own fate....
i am innocent... i shouldnt blame myself...for my parents death...
however... after a few yrs... my adopted parents died...bec0s of the tsuamii when they went for the holidays...
n yet... the air tickets is sponser by mii frm my 1st salary when i went out for work....
it was mii... to be responsible for their death...
perhaps is my curse....
i can sense tat.... he was... very sad...confused....
is my fault... if it wasnt mii, his parents wont die rite?
i am blind.... n useless.... n is a jinx...

i went to the seaside one day...
the sound of the waves make mii feel calm... n safe..
a thought came in my mind..
i jumped into the sea...
i head ppl shouting b4 i jumped... but is no longer important to mii
in the same darkness... i felt someone pulled mii... then i ......

i woke up... in a hospital...
i still alive?...
after few days... i knew what had happened......

HE had folo mii to the seaside...
HE was the one who had saved mii...
yet... after i am safe.... a huge waves came... n he.......LEFT mii

i always wonder... y...
i wonder he did hate mii not?

i am left alone with lots of questions unanswered.....
but i treasure my life as... is him who exchange it for mii...

every sunday... u will see... a gal... who is blind but keep lookin far at the sea...
tat gal is mii.....

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She came into my life...
my heart pain when i saw her putting on an act to prove tat she is strong...
i dun believe any curse...
i only n0e she is the gal i love... n wana take care of for the whole life...
my parents... died....
i knew she kept blaming herself....
i was veri confused...... but it wont changed the fact that i loved her....
we planned to marry soon... but i think it have to be postpone...
i had bought a house....
the wall in the living room.... had a banner....which i desgined myself...
it was wriiten ''LOVE U ALWAYS DARLING...''
She nv n0e tat as.. she cant see..............

i dreamt about you and me at 7:05 AM.