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Sunday, July 15, 2007

Every thing the world is changin....
Everyday... Every hour... Every min n Every sec

Duno since when...
i start to learn what is tear... what is sadness... numb... n pain...
Duno since when....
i lost my happiness.... no longer a gal who can be contended by just haviin a tv to watch...
Duno y...
I seem to tears veri often.... n think so much until i cant take t anymore....
Duno y...
i seem to be automatically mark a line btw mii n the ppl around mii....

Perhaps.....
Is time for mii to grow up....
Perhaps....
is time for mii to put down the PAST
perhaps...
is time for mii accept somemone to walk into my heart....
perhaps...
i am just scare of being hurt.................

I dun hav much frenz in pri sch... nor in sec ...
frenz mean those u really can talk with... n whenever u wana go out u will cal them..
A person can have 1000 over frenz in a life but...is useless if he doesnt have 1 frenz true to him
Sometime is really hard to find out who is the best to u...
is ok to mii... c0s i know.... the world is unfair... but ther alway another door open for u...
when the door u alway use is closed...
Sometimes is really hurt to be a lot of war btw frenz n perhaps.. mii oso involved...
I choose to ignore...
to stop myself being hurt... or maybe to stop myself frm hurtin others...

I found myself being veri addicited to the chats in net...
n abt makiin frenz in nets.... such as maple...
kiddy say....
i am escapiin frm my real life .........
i rather trust stranger than somemone i kn0w....
well...maybe is true...
actually i felt insecure in REAL life....
i eveytime feel tat everyone is leavin mii at any times....
just like many ppl say... there is no such thing as foreva...

K let say abt relationship....
tis is what many ppl KEEP askiin mii....
I kn0w is nt matter abt looks or anything...
but i still duno what mean by liking a person...
i nv had b4....
n i hate tat feelin when a person who i dun really know... being close to mii...
i oso hate the feeling when... a feeling of frenz suddenly change...
i wish everyone can be just my friend...
frenz can be long long time to be together...
but as what i can see at tis age....
relationship doesnt last...
n couple beome total stranger..... tat TRUE...
i rather have my frenz...n nth have ever change it...
i am afraid of losiin any frenz...
whereas... in net relationship...
tat is worst...
i dun believe tat the other party will be true to mii...
even they can be as caring as ther appear to be....
but overall ... I DUN BELIEVE MYSELF THAT I CAN CONTRIBUTE IN ANY RELATIONSHIP... as i know the more feeling i put in... the greater i fall in the end...
i can actually to choose to just play play....
it seem like just a game
but i know there still be somemone being hurt... haiz...
i still young so i dunwana think anymore...
my frenz... i dun wish to change current situation with u all...

world of my dream....
today ... i have nth to write here... just wana say...
I LOVE ALL MY FRENZ...

i dreamt about you and me at 1:13 AM.