k .. what to say...recently wont be on9 in msn..c0s my com explodeddun ask mii y?i oso dunoLOLs...without com..my life so siian...then hor...my hp no $$..stupid la...i like ...so lose the connection to the world lidat..zzzanything.. anyway... cal my hse is the only way to find mii ...i saw hz blog -.-erm...zzz...i knew yt is troubled...but dun drag mii down...i dun think daddy is tat bad la..feelings cant be control de...n is like...ppl wan like u .. is hard to stop de...haiz...i really dun0 h0w to say ...daddy cheer :)world of my dreams ...there no exact explaination abt feelings... nor right or wrong...there is no world for frenz or 3rd pt in a love?even it is one sided...sometimes when u think say out everything might be a cure for all probs...but to some maybe nt...haiz...so tired of life...even my own relationships oso a messsingle n happy ^^
i dreamt about you and me at 1:11 AM.
Today bio prac is damn ez...i only use 1/2h...Bolia0s jac make mii bur like hell....she went to use bunsen burner...zzzwatever la...i am damn siian lolafter tat i went hm .. n slpfrm 11am to 4pm...msn frm 4pm... until n0w 12am...lols.as u all kn0w recently quite moody..luckily gt daddy they all ^^jiejie oso veri gd...son n hz....hah....l0ls. PIG oso... =p (hlp mii KILL time )but although i am quite ok n0w...but pls dun irritate mii...kana bomb then is none of my business ....LOL....tml have to wake early again..kinda siianhaha...write until here laworld of my dreams...someone just simply wana challenge my patient..then too bad...at tis pt of time..i have none...so u r dead....
i dreamt about you and me at 8:51 AM.
ya great... tml haviin exam...n0w 2am i still haven slp...n is down here bloggiindun0 what the hell i really wan...sad to say i emoiin ...maybe i am stress?lol...yup i cut myself again...sry -.-minor cuts so is nt a big deal...i actually haven start studyiinoya great u can say...i feel tat i am so w0rthless n0w...just a piece of junk....wonderiin y my mum choose mii last time?y dun just dump mii to HIM....will my life be different....?after some chats with some ppl...on topic on sec 3... -.-yup i can say.. life is tough for mii after sec 2 holidays...everyting have change...for example... my grandpa died...n i knew abt my dad cheated my grandpa 's money using my name for so many yr...it was like...i dun0 h0w to react for such news....well indeed... my mum always tot i wont care abt HIM at all n0w...i am numb ...but in fact... i mind HIM a lot...i just cant hlp thinkiin of him each time...trust n betray...suit the theme of MACBETH which i study for lit n0w...my dad is just like Macbeth.... ruthess , n evil..through him.. i knew what is HATE n dun easily trust anyone even is ur family...blah blah.. watever la...i just keep livin in the past i know..tat y .. i always cant move forward to new life....n0w O lvl comiin...nt tat i nt worried at all...i just dun0...h0w to be damn nervous...i had been through the worst...as family is my top piority but our relationship sux...therefore study seem like no longer important to mii..i dun0 what i really wan...i knew i keep repeatiin but.. just cant hlp it...haiz...world of my dreams...my childhood n past is nitemaremy present life is sux..my future has nth...
i dreamt about you and me at 10:45 AM.
Actually ... i gt nth to write oso la...
hah.. just feel like updatin nia...
the sch chinese essay competition..
i gt 2nd...
but i din go receive my prize...
c0s late..
zzz
LOL
n0w siianiin lol...
still thinkiin of the book tat i just read
it gt 2 sentences i like it veri much...
is in chinese...
hah... dun0 h0w to translate...
lol...
so tired...
ytd went ecp alone...
rather cold there...
hah...
today almost late for sch..
scary...
nvm... i think of things then i update again..
world of my dreams...
i am living in ytd ~~
i dreamt about you and me at 3:43 AM.
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
Erm... what to say?lol... just wake up...=.=tml gt chem practical prelim.. siian..my hse recently gt a new member...NONO.. nt my mum give birth hor... =.=is i gt a dog...name LUCKY =.=damn BIG BIG n fierce dog...eeeedun dare to go near him hah...exam already startedyet i still slackiin...i really dun0 wth i want a bit startiin to think i am just a junk...i has a wish..can i just slp n no longer wake anym0re...i really hope so...T.Tw0rld of my dreams....the race started...but i still at the startiin point?what am i suppose to do?catch up with others?just give up..?haiz..i really dun0....
i dreamt about you and me at 4:54 AM.
Saturday, August 18, 2007
lol... n0w past 12am.. so is 19 Aug..k so i say ytd ~~~ytd~~mornin - gd time n weather for slpiinafternoon - went to bedok library to study with chandra...nite - went to see firew0rkTHE FIREWORK SIMPLY COOL BUT I HATE BEING A HAMBURGER-.- so many ppl ther...FLOODED...n i am super short lol...-.-walk until so tired hah....w0rld of my dreams ~~~i love firew0rks
i dreamt about you and me at 9:37 AM.
List out your top 5 birthday presents that you wish for: 1) A BIG BIG soft toy?2) New com...3) necklaces n earrings? all kind of cute things...
4) Jacket...clothes ~~5) anything `~~( nt the drink )Answer the following questions: 1.The person who tag you is?-Xia0s. zin zin2. Your relationship with him/her is? -She my darling 3. Your 5 impressions of him/her? - NICE N FRIENDLY-SOMETIMES CRAZY =x- PRETTY N HOT-RATHER COOL- IS A VERI VERI GD FRENZ N DARLING ^^4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you? -CANT RMB c0s EVERYTHING SHE DID were MEMORABEL5. The most memorable words he/she had said to you?- i like every w0rd she say leh ...6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will? - Kiss her ( wahaHa =p.. relax )7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be? - she is perfect gal for mii8. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will? - cry? 9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be? -she wana win mii in lesin?10.The most desire thing you want to do for him/her now is? - writing tis ans as she request -.-11.Your overall impression of him/her is? -great n perfect12.How you think people around you will feel about you? - LES? HOMOSEXUAL? CRAZY? ABNORMAL?13.The character you love of yourself is? -I JUST SIMPLY LOVE MYSELF =x14.On the contrary, the characters you hate of yourself are? -I JSUT SIMPLY HATE MYSELF =p15.The most ideal person you want to be is? -JUST THE SAME MII16.Pass this quiz to 10 persons. 1.Angelia2. bean3.Crystal4. bao yu5. Chandra6.Sharon7. Ashley8. yiting9.Zhengyi10. jia yin11. Who is no.6 having relationship with? -with mii? lol... she said she is single leh?12.Is no.9 a male or female? -female of cos...13.If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing? -they duno each other i suppose...14.How about no.8 and 5? -maybe? =p but chandra gt a gal in mind le =.=15.What is no.2 studying about? -She study abt what she nid to study16.When was the last time you had a chat with no.3? -just finish a phone cal with her... 1h ago...
17.What kind of music band does no.8 like? -she still like jay chou most ...18.Does no.1 has any siblings? -yup.. a handsome bro19.Will you woo no.3? y nt? she is hot n sexy... but... i bet MONKEY will kill mii if i woo her =p20.How about no.7? - i'm her grnnie -.-21.Is no.4 single? -maybe ~~~22.What's the surname of no.5? -ask him urself =p...23.What's the hobby of no.4? -ask her urself ..wahaHa24.Do no.5 and 9 get along well? ya .. i think.. c0s they dun0 each other -.-25.Where is no.2 studying at? -m'sia26.Talk something casually about no.1? -crazy27.Have you try developing feelings for no.8? -she my hubby liia0s.
28.Where does no.9 live at? -m'sia29.What color does no.4 like? -ask her urself =x30.Are no.5 and 1 best friends? -dun0.. but they r frenz ^^31.Does no.7 likes no.2? - they r great sisters...32.How do you get to know no.2? -through my dearest son.. dew dew33.Does no.1 have any pets? -dun think so... but she gt a ah niao ~~~34.Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?- perhaps ~~~LOL xia0 zin... siian for doiin tis Quiz siia... veri lame la...
i dreamt about you and me at 10:27 AM.
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
ermm...today in sch .. onli 1 w0rd ...SIIAN!!lols.ytd my eng teacher say...guys with dimples cant be trusted...i go spread .. soon kana scolded..swtt...i tot teacher say de we must learn ma .. =xy say mii worng? T.Tmii innocent de....LOLs0meh0w....dun0 y...mii moody again...today...i started to feel so lost n confused....as time passes...as the exam gettin near...i am worried...yet i din do anything to make myself feel better...i am lazy n hopless....i really dun0 what mii really wanted...haiz...n0w thinkiin...if i fail O lvl...can i have the courage to just go die?ppl say frenz must support each other...any0ne willing give mii courage go die?i am tired n stress...WHAT TO DO?
WHAT TO DO?
WHAT TO DO?haiz... nvm.. just leave mii alone...i really nid times to think through something...feel like goiin to ecp ...like xiia0s. zin zin...the different is...i dun like afternoon...but i like midnite...w0rld of my dream...I AM IN HELL !!
i dreamt about you and me at 5:38 AM.
Erm ~~~today is a big day...chinese O lvl result release...gt ppl happy gt ppl sad...hz gt a B3...but i think she has make us proud le..but i believe she can do much better...sharon n angie n freddy... B4...2 gals... cried.. the pig happy..cleve yeo !!! he gt an A1 wahaHa..pei ying is a sad case... she gt a C6..dun0 y...son oso... C6...but i kn0w my son will do better next time..son.. mummy support u =xmy daddy gt a B3.. so happy for him...erm.. aftertat is my O eng oral..i was the last person...i waited.. frm 2pm to 5pm..wth...overall.. okok la...tat all... i rmb anything then blog...w0rld of my dreams...love can be sweet...n turn sour...n soon bitter....
i dreamt about you and me at 8:01 AM.
Thursday, August 09, 2007
lalala~~~t0day wake at abt 10+c0s freedy hse warmin...hah....WOODLAND !!!the children there damn active ^^hahwe were haviin WARS!!killin.. freddy n jason... wahaHan OYA....gt 1 ppl .. irritated mii n hz...stupid fuckiin asshole...his mouth real stink.....wahaha... hz kn0w who rite?=pi am gentle dunwan scold directly so*********lidat can le...aftertat we went movie...but haiz.. hz left for hm ...mii gt free movie =pwe watched.. SERCERT..damn t0uchiin lol...i cried...haiz...then n0w reach hm le.. is like so tiredbones all break le la...PS: I GT A DADDY ^^w0rld of my dreams...HAPPY NATIONAL DAY....waahahaha
i dreamt about you and me at 8:07 AM.
Wednesday, August 08, 2007
WTF... i was bloggin halfway then my com shut d0wn itself...siian... tis i re type de...lazy to type back most things....Well... lets start...Today is a 1 fine day...i slp ONLY 3 h...zzzthen have to go sch for a fuckiin lousy concertbc0s of national day...the concert i din see... c0s i was all along readiin my n0vel..hz.. nag n nag...the concert is boriin...c0s the ppl on stg...only kn0w h0w to sing n sing..+ the stupid mic is so...zzzn the speaker in our hall is like...broadcastiin a spoil chanel frm the radio...n like almost explode liia0s. la...aftertat.. went market to eat with hz n yt...yt so gd..., treat mii...c0s i am a poor student... so sad...aftertat went suntec with nini,,,yt n hz...c0s hz SAY wana buy a short.. which in the end nv buy lol...hah...when shoppin.. i was so slppy...so in the end we went hm quite early la... ~~~erm... nth much i wana say la...n oso lazy to type out le..w0rld of my dream~~~erm... hah... say liia0s. lazy type.. u think i still will post story meh?derrhs...k fine... suddenly think of somethin..Finally... everythiing is over btw us...we love each other i kn0w...but we just dunhav the fate to keep both of us to stay on to tis relationship...u kn0w... i realised tat i have been takiin ur care n concern for granted...every n0w n then.. when i was buyiin food n drink....or even when i was buyiin any other things...i tot of u...it was so long ago since i last did these alone...n until n0w... w0rst thing is i kept forgetin tat u no longer around beside miiyet i buy everythin in pair......The stars in the night sky... were just the same...i was standiin on the hill where we once stood ...h0wever... the stars which suppose to smile to mii...seem like so fake....they were no longer the same as u r nt watchiin them...with miiThe night when we break...my hse here was rainin heavily....i wondered if ur hse there had the same weather?izzit heaven cryiin for us?no matter what....i knew what next yr at tis point of time i will do....i will think of u... n thank god tat i once kn0w u...u teach mii all kind of things... n accompany mii went through every happiness n sadness...the only thing tat u failed ur task is...u nv teach mii h0w to live without u in my life alone....i dun0 h0w...i'll be strong i promise... but...i knew my life will nv be complete c0s my heart had left with u...PS for all broken eng la....i lazy to check for vocb n gam....lai rather i wrote everyting in chinese siia.. but cant...siianz...tis is what i suddenly feel la... dun ask mii who the guy k? lalala~~~
i dreamt about you and me at 7:53 AM.
Fine n whatever... i n0w updatiin la...zzz... no nid nag le...nth happen much la... wait .. i think...still slackiin lol....erm... gt went for RGS concert with xia0s. zin zin...i like the indo de.. angklung...RGS ah?soso lol...watched simpson movie...quite funny ><forget gt what le...only kn0w i damn tired...w0rld of my dreamz....LOve is just like a rose....nt because it is beautiful...it is because it has thorns....the most sweetest love.. have the most bittest ending...gt story in mind... erm.. lazy type n0w..cya in next post...
i dreamt about you and me at 2:16 AM.
